Harshada,

Two months ago I decided to go meet my first Hinge date and I'm really really glad I took that decision and went for that walk because two months later you're the first thing I think about when I wake up, the last thing on my mind before I sleep and somehow still there in most moments in between.

I honestly don't even know how to properly put what I feel for you into words but I still wanted to try. You're the one who writes long messages, drafts status updates at 11 PM, handles Puja for three hours a night and still somehow always knows what to say when I'm spiralling. I kept thinking about what I could even do for someone who makes me feel this loved all the time. Loving you has changed me in so many ways. You've made me softer, braver, happier and honestly just a much better person than I was before I met you.

So I made this. I went through our messages and pulled out some of the moments that we had together. The night you waited at the gate and I was nervous as hell. The first concealer. The Netlify site you made for me in one evening which was probably the first time someone had put that much effort into something for me and it made me feel really special. Mai Mai and you taking me out on a date there and how stupidly happy I was the entire time. The night I finally asked you to be my girlfriend and you said yes. Our couple gym session together. The 26 sticky notes you left all over my room before you flew to Pune.

You once wrote "I am not dating you with the intention of you becoming my ex boyfriend." I read that line a couple of times a week, my love. Sometimes more. For every we'll be just fine you've sent me, I'm sending one back.

Happy two months, Harshada. You're my home too.

yours,
Varun